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<p>Created page with &quot;I barely recognize myself anymore. I&#039;ve been put through so much shit in the past fifteen years and my defenses are such that I feel like I&#039;ve totally lost the person I was.&lt;b...&quot;</p> <p><b>New page</b></p><div>I barely recognize myself anymore. I&#039;ve been put through so much shit in the past fifteen years and my defenses are such that I feel like I&#039;ve totally lost the person I was.&lt;br&gt;<br /> &lt;br&gt;<br /> I refuse to even look at boys in the real world. The only way I allow myself to appreciate boys is if I see them online. There was a time when I&#039;d wink at boys in public without hesitation. Now I&#039;ll go a block out of my way to avoid passing one on the street. That shit makes me sad.&lt;br&gt;<br /> &lt;br&gt;<br /> People make me so fucking anxious that I can&#039;t stand to be around anyone. I&#039;ll go days and days without speaking. I&#039;m a complete hermit. It&#039;s because I feel like I&#039;m surrounded by the enemy. I am surrounded by the enemy. I refuse to make connections with people who would only reject me if they knew who I really am. It seems like a waste of time.&lt;br&gt;<br /> &lt;br&gt;<br /> I wonder where I&#039;ll be ten years from now. The venom and vitriol in my heart scares me.&lt;br&gt;<br /> &lt;br&gt;<br /> &lt;i&gt;source: &#039;I&#039;ve changed so much...&#039; by &#039;SlickSix&#039;; www.boychat.org/messages/1523763.htm; BoyChat; 7 February 2019&lt;/i&gt;<br /> <br /> [[Category:Nickname: SlickSix]]<br /> [[Category:Isolation]]<br /> [[Category:Isolement‏‎]]</div>

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