Society's agitation against pedophiles goes too far

By: Sander Moree (pseudonym)

I'm at loose ends, and have been for years. My emotional life is dominated by amorous feelings towards children. I have been able to find my place in a hostile society thanks to talking with people who experience the same feelings in a working party for pedophilia. Finding my place means: being with children as much as I wish to, being as frank as possible about my feelings with parents and the children, and especial­ly not engaging in sexual activity (I'm not intent on doing that anyway). My social life, which mainly consists of young friends, has thus been without problems for years. Parents are greatly taken with me, and children are even more.

Yet I'm emotionally troubled, feel very threatened by my sur­roundings, and I am getting more and more isolated. The cause: society's agitation against pedophiles is growing more exorbi­tant every day. I'm not allowed to talk about love, to use the media to defend myself, to look at naked children, and it seems like I can't read about it anymore either, for the only magazine that has the guts to look at pedophilia in an unbig­oted way is now being refused by the last homosexual book-shops. The basis of existence, love, has been taken away from me. What's worse is that it's even understandable after Zandvoort (the Dutch child pornography scandal) and Dutroux. Owed to these incidents, I am being rejected by society.

I have been able to stand this for years, but nowadays I'm filled with anger each time I hear something insinuating about pedophilia. Moderate reports can hardly be found anymore. Now I read about lifelong incarceration of sick pedosexuals on the front page of the newspaper De Volkskrant (9 December). A small positive thing is that for whichever obscure reason the media have discovered the difference between pedosexuals and pedophiles. Yet there is a snag. I turn out to be a potential pedosexual, even though I never touch any child. Lately every depiction of naked children in which the police discover sexual bearing is declared illegal. When I'm accused of possessing such a depiction I as well belong to the group of extremely dangerous 'pedosexuals'. You should try and explain that to my little friends. They and their parents would laugh straight into your face. Isn't it striking that I only feel reasonably safe when I'm at one of their homes?

I could never ignore my principles and challenge my friends to have sex with me. Because I'm a real pedophile, I love them. Sadly enough there will be weaker people who can't stand society's pressure anymore and will put aside their princi­ples, with abuse as a result. Isn't that exactly what we want to protect children against? If the media and the government don't create a climate in which pedophiles can express their feelings (and I don't mean they should get the right to have sex with children) more children will fall victim! Even I am afraid that my friends will run into a pedosexual.

source: 'Society's Agitation Against Pedophiles Goes Too Far' by Sander Moree (pseudonym); OK Magazine, no. 67; March 1999; Translated from Dutch; newspaper De Volkskrant; 12 December 1998