Interview: Heidi

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[Heidi, Danish woman of 24 who had an affair with her female teacher when she was 13:] I had this strange feeling in my stomach I didn't understand or know what to do with. But it was wonderful to be so close to her, to feel her body and her warmth. To hug and be hugged, and be touched by her. It was all physically exiting. I wanted to be close to her. But I never thought about having sex with her or anything like that. [...] Her taking a risk for me also made me trust her. It made her special. She thought I was important enough to take such a big risk. [...]

She told me about her life and she wanted to hear everything about mine. I told her about my problems, about everything. That's how she helped me. [...] Looking back. I think I would have liked to have sex with her. [...] The other side is that maybe it was better that sex didn't happen because of the mess it might have caused.

source: Article 'Interview: Heidi'; Paidika - The Journal of Paedophilia; Special Women's Issue; Volume 2, Number 4, Issue 8; Amsterdam; Winter 1992