Two emails to Martijn
By: Two mailers
Dear Sir, Madam,
Recently, I learned that your association was present at BLGP (Belgian Lesbian and Gay Pride). I had never heard of 'Martijn' before, despite the fact that you have existed for a very long time. By this mail, I want to congratulate you with the existence and the works of your association. Some years ago I graduated as a historian at the Vrije Universiteit (Free University) in Brussels with a discourse about 'Discrimination Of Homosexuals In Belgium Between 1960 And 1968'. I am a lesbian myself, but not a pedophile (but as a young child I did have sexual feelings towards adult women), but during my investigation I was confronted with quite a lot of information about pedosexuality. Soon I understood that something has to be done urgently about the emancipation of pedophiles.
By the way, the argument of BLGP that the movement of homosexual, lesbian and bisexual people has nothing to do with the problems of pedophiles, is not fair. Through my investigation I discovered that pedophiles used to have a distinct place in the movement of homosexual, lesbian and bisexual people (just think of the Belgian 'Rooie Vlinder' (Red Butterfly). But as a result of the becoming bourgeois of the movement of homosexuals, lesbian and bisexual people, they were soon kept out of that. I do not know if you are informed about the existence of very good scientific literature about this theme. The scientists Jos Van Ussel and Bob Carlier have written about pedophilia and the right of children for their own sexual lives. E.g. the next article: BOB CARLIER, Het 'kinderlijke' in de seksualiteit. Over kinderseksualiteit, pedofilie en seksueel misbruik van kinderen (About The 'Childlike' In Sexuality. About Child Sexuality, Pedophilia, Sexual Abuse Of Children, in: W. De Temmerman ed. Diep en duizendvoudig leven. Bijdragen over seksualiteit, relaties, ethiek (Living Deeply And Thousandfold. Contributions About Sexuality, Relations, Ethics), Brussels, 1993. Carlier was an extraordinary intelligent man, but sadly enough he died much too soon.
Good luck to you!
Kindly regards,
Astrid Albers
Dear people,
This to me is, emotionally, very difficult to write a letter about my alleged pedophile inclination. It is not that I do 'not' get a crush on adult women, because that really is so, but a young girl with breasts and the shape of a woman draws my attention too. I often think: what is this about! How many men are not there, who look at graceful young girls aged 12 to 15. It is this so-called target group which older women are often jealous of: a tight body, which definitely includes firm breasts, because at an older age (if possible) people like to have their breasts lifted to a firm cup size.
Which man does not just look, when a preteenager bends forwards and shows a panorama of breasts, subtly hidden behind her blouse. Besides, they often have a figure which cannot be beaten by the figures of somewhat older women. They may have beautiful breasts, but one is not allowed to have a certain appreciation for that, because they are young. One is not allowed to say that it looks fine and tempting. A preteenager can look beautiful and sexual in all glory like an adult woman and most probably more beautiful too. I lookat them too, but I know better than to do something with it, because... they do think naievely at this age. I am allowed to find it beautiful, is not it?
Am I really such a sick person? I myself do not think so, I think that many, many men/women do think so, but deny it, because our culture looks different at it. In other continents it is very normal to marry a preteenager, though I myself think that this is not right, because (as I said before) a preteenager should discover everything what love has to offer. I think that I can find a young girl beautiful and sexually attractive, but looking only! Yet I think it is very difficult to talk about this and certainly also because it can damage me in my work. Actually, I did not want to send a mail, because... do I know if this is not some little joke by the police. Anyway, I am quite worried about this.
I am not a person who follows girls compulsively or something like that; not at all. I look at them when they walk by; but not exaggeratedly. I find the fact that I look, annoying enough for myself. I can also call myself a Christian and that makes it extra hard, because how do you deal with this in church.
Kindly regards,
S.
source: Two emails to Martijn; Translated from Dutch; OK Magazine, no. 89; June 2004